Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Where my life is heading....

So, I enjoy teaching. I really do. I have great days and great kids. But most of the days, they exasperate me. I start to think about how I didn't really like high school the first time around, so when did I think it was wise to teach in high school for the rest of my life. I love teaching, but I'm pretty sure I don't like the students. I love the material I teach, but I don't know how to break it down to the even the tiniest bits of information. So, now more than ever, I am convinced that teaching is not what I want to do for the rest of my life. I'm going to seriously persue pharmacy. I started looking into going back to school at the end of last year, but now I'm going to follow in a friend's footsteps and start being more serious about it. I've even started to set goals for myself in applying to schools and taking the PCAT. High school is not where I want to be for the rest of my life. I would rather be working in an area where I feel I am feeling people get better, and some place that be a little bit more appreciative of the work that I put it into the job. Wow, I sound whiny.

I love learning. I know, I'm a huge nerd, but I can't help it. I read science books for fun. I want to constantly be challenged. I want to learn new things that can change the way we live our lives. I don't want to be in a classroom with students who feel superior to me because they started a family SUPER early. I can't deal with the constant disrespect from students and from parents, and even sometimes from administrations. I don't think I'm strong enough to teach. It's a great lay-over job, but just like any other airport traveler, I'm ready to start my next journey and make it home finally.

Okay, I feel better. Off to coach. Now that, I will miss!